Aided by a few glasses of chardonnay, I took a deep breath and said "well I would love to be an artist, but that's not going to happen"....
What the?? Did that just come out of my mouth?? Did I really say that, and more disturbingly, is that what I really felt?? Talk about two steps forward, and three giant leaps back!
Two weeks later and a large amount of soul searching, I am going to nurture my fragile inner artist, I am going to love her, and encourage her, praise her and cultivate her, and next time I will say - "Well, I am an artist." Shut mouth now ; )
Here is my response to this weeks IF - Cultivate.
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Hi Kirstin! Oh I can totally relate to your feeling...I don't know why sometimes we beat ourselves down. But I suppose ultimately it's the fear of failure...even when we are proud of our own work...if a negative opinion ever comes up we immediately doubt. It's easier to shy away from the whole topic. It takes a while I think, to build up the artist confidence in ourselves and to realize that ultimately it's about how we feel, not others. Even if it's great to get a response to our work :) Wishing you the best on your journey and by the looks of it, I think you've got mega talent! Beautiful illo!!!
ReplyDeleteHuhh. I have three children, and I can't see my future. :-( I was a petty clerk before them. Nowadays I became more and more antisociated. :-( And I began to draw. I never drew before christmas. It is a therapy for me between two nappy changing. :-) I am not artist, I was a financial chinovnyk (?). And now I have now b plan. That would be no possible to go 8 hours long work, but I can't stay home. I have 1 year at home, and then... I do not know.
ReplyDeleteBut I know, that every situation have positive side. It is my cultivating time, cultivating my future.
You drew fantastic, i would like to draw as good as you. You will find your way! A talented and beautiful way. (My English is... not it is not. :-D)
I like this very much -- very nice composition and palette.
ReplyDeleteGood for you... really. i dont have kids, i do have a full time job and im trying very hard to make it out there as well. i give you a lot of credit. its a gorgeous illustration. :)
ReplyDeleteVery nice illustration. Makes me think you could write a new movie for Disney. Sure beats all the princesses they usually do :)
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely a beautiful image, and please, please, please continue to nurture your fragile artist, because it will get stronger. It is your true spiritual self and it finally had to have a say. :) :)
ReplyDeleteYou are an artist. The moment you pick up a pencil, camera, paintbrush etc and do something with it you are an artist. I'm like you I would love to be able to support myself via my art as I would love to continue being the stay at home mom I am.
ReplyDeleteSuper painting, she has a very determined look on her face.